The thing is I'm perfectly capable of writing. I was taking a part Unspeakable Plot for the triad option (that failed miserably around 100k mark by the way. My plot just can't handle that kind of relationship build, but I digress) and I wrote about 20k of extra material in about four days. So it's not the act of writing that is the problem for me.
I have plenty of ideas so it's not that I don't have any ideas to work on and to be honest I probably have about 50 works in progress that I could spend time on.
I just...don't want to.
I've been writing for three decades so, of course, there have been times when I simply have no desire to do it but I always hate these points in my life as I feel stifled and weird.
There's this moat of dismal around my creative mind and I don't even want to get in the boat and
try to cross it.
It's such a weird place to be.