Keira Marcos (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
keiramarcos) wrote2017-01-14 11:17 pm
keiramarcos) wrote2017-01-14 11:17 pm
Entry tags:
Self Esteem Issues
Somewhere along the line, I stopped caring what I looked like. It's weird...perhaps a part of the depression I've struggled with since I was a teenager but I was cleaning up my bathroom storage and I came across the little box I keep my cosmetics in. I had to throw the foundation and powder away because I hadn't used it in so long it was dried out/cracked. It was a such a weird moment and while I've never worn a lot of make-up I did realize that I hadn't worn any in about 2 years.
I haven't had my hair cut/styled in about six months.
Maybe it's because I gained weight due to the PCOS and I felt so "ugh" for months on end that I just stopped caring about my personal appearance. It really isn't about the make-up because as I said, I've rarely worn a lot anyways but in the past I've always made sure to be put together if you know what I mean.
More to the point, this whole time I didn't realize I was having some kind of self esteem thing going on --which is also probably related to depression. Maybe I need a stronger prescription.
Sigh.
--KM
PS -- Do not dare give me a lecture about "natural" remedies or recommend I take a walk in the fucking woods or some such nonsense. I've got a chemical imbalance in my brain that requires actual medication prescribed by a real goddamned doctor. Just FYI.
I haven't had my hair cut/styled in about six months.
Maybe it's because I gained weight due to the PCOS and I felt so "ugh" for months on end that I just stopped caring about my personal appearance. It really isn't about the make-up because as I said, I've rarely worn a lot anyways but in the past I've always made sure to be put together if you know what I mean.
More to the point, this whole time I didn't realize I was having some kind of self esteem thing going on --which is also probably related to depression. Maybe I need a stronger prescription.
Sigh.
--KM
PS -- Do not dare give me a lecture about "natural" remedies or recommend I take a walk in the fucking woods or some such nonsense. I've got a chemical imbalance in my brain that requires actual medication prescribed by a real goddamned doctor. Just FYI.