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I could spend a whole year talking about the fetishizing of men in fandom because it is wide spread and it leads to some truly ugly behavior on the parts of fans. It breeds contempt for show creators and sometimes obsessions with actors that can and have gotten dangerously out of hand. Actors sometimes get melded with the characters they play in a fan’s mind, and that can lead to the fan believing they know them in very intimate ways when it simply isn’t true.

One of the most distressing things I see in fandom is the objectification of the real people who play the characters we love. I can’t really do anything about the problem but I notice it, and it’s often utterly appalling. I want to just lose my shit sometimes and point out—hey, that’s a fucking human being you’re talking about there. He’s not some puppet you can play around with like a goddamned toy.

You probably think it doesn’t matter what you think in your head or what you put on Tumblr regarding an actor or actress. You think it’s perfectly okay to write a fic about Joe Flanigan and David Hewlett cheating on their wives/girlfriends/families because you’re just writing fiction. It’s not hurting anything. Except they both have children and one day one of those kids might stumble across your fucked up little short story about their dad cheating on their mom, and of course, because you’re an asshole you’ve made sure to insult and degrade their mother as much as possible to justify the cheating. I’m sure that’s going to be a fun conversation for everyone involved.

Explicit sex in fan fiction plays a role in objectification, and I acknowledge this. I’ve always known that there is a subset of people who only read my work for the sex. They make it clear in their comments and in specifically in the parts of my stories they remember. I once saw a “find a fic” request on an LJ community that outlined five sex scenes and not a single plot point. All they remembered was the sex. It wasn’t my story they were looking for, but more than one person suggested that I might be the author of this missing fic. I’m glad I wasn’t. I felt let down and terrible for the author it was though because one person after another on that thread would comment about having read the fic. Not a single one of them mentioned a plot point or a bit of characterization that wasn’t sex.

I knew the story they were looking for—it was a beautiful piece of work with excellent characterization and an engrossing plot that was utterly breathtaking. I never commented on that thread with the answer because I wanted no part of the conversation. I think it took six or seven weeks for someone to provide a link. I don’t want to discuss the title or author here because it’s not fair to her or her work. That thread on that fic finders community wasn’t fair to her work either. But it did highlight something I’d noticed about a few readers on my site. The sex stood out for them. Specifically, the gay sex stood out for them, and nothing else was really important.

Early on, I had to figure out where my hard line was regarding objectification in my fandom work. I decided that I would write about characters, not actors. I don’t read or write “real person fiction” as a result. For example, John Sheppard is a character—a fictional person who exists in the Stargate fandom that I know well. Joe Flanigan is a real person—he has a family and a personal life that is none of my business. I don’t know him at all, and honestly, I have no interest in knowing him. I’m sure he’s a nice guy, but I’m not here for Joe Flanigan. I’m in the Stargate fandom for John Sheppard.




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There is a certain kind of writer who attaches no value to their own work on an emotional level. They write for attention. It’s the same kind of “writer” who dreams of writing a book so they’d be rich and famous. This is also the kind of “writer” who wants to write a book about their life because apparently, we ALL want to read about it and just don’t know it. This attention-seeking writer actually taints the fandom, and readers, with their pathological need for attention. They encourage readers to offer them suggestions for future plot developments, character arcs, and even pairings. Then when they write themselves into a hole because of they actually listened to all the crap they get back—they blame their “muse” for not being inspired to complete the story.

Of course, the worse part of an attention-seeking writer are the readers they leave in their wake who feel entitled to intrude on the process of other writers because they felt validated by a previous experience. They are utterly comfortable providing a list of wishes and wants to other writers in their feedback. If they want a certain pairing in a story—they demand it and will abuse a writer if they don’t get it.

I’ve said before that reader entitlement is the ugliest part of fandom. I’ve been threatened with rape and murder for not updating when a reader felt I should. There have been times when readers have essentially had screaming fits on my contact form or in an email because I didn’t write the pairing they wanted or I chose a Stargate project over a Harry Potter one for Rough Trade.

Some readers take my decisions regarding my own writing as a personal insult and have no problems letting me know that I’m ruining their life by not writing what they want me to write.

Recently, I had a reader send me a single sentence email, and it was:

“I was recently diagnosed with breast cancer, I hope you finish Phoenix before I die.”

At first, I was outraged, but I wasn’t particularly surprised since I’ve seen this kind of emotional blackmail in fandom before. I deleted the email without a response, and I put the sender on a filter in my email that automatically trashes any email she sends me in the future. Because I want no part of her bullshit but I do wonder how many other writers she’s approached with this disgusting tactic.

Those who only read in fandom don’t genuinely understand the creative process. They don’t understand the intimacy of writing or the emotional risk of posting it in public. They never will understand, really, and investing yourself in trying to make them is just intellectual masochism.
keiramarcos: (Default)
Got this email:
I read your Stargate works years ago but fell out of the fandom for a while. I was surprised and disappointed to return to your site and find that you've been writing Harry Potter.

As a Christian, I'm deeply offended by your interest in the occult and find that my joy in your Stargate works has been greatly diminished. I hope you find Jesus.

* * * * *
I can't respond because of the bogus email address but let me assure you, I know exactly where Jesus is. He's lived in my silverware drawer for like the better part of a decade.

As an atheist, I'm deeply offended that you were perfectly capable of enjoying my Magical Mystery Butt-Sex Tour until I stuck some *obvious* magic in it.

I got news for you dipshit, all cock is magical.

keiramarcos: (Default)
1. Your deep, personal investment in my work makes me really uncomfortable.

2. Sometimes your feedback is phrased in such a way that I worry the line between fiction and reality is pretty much nonexistent for you.

3. I hate it when you read between the lines of my story and make up shit that didn't actually happen then make it seem like you're really unhappy with your assumptions and blame me. It's not cool.

4. Your homophobia makes me deeply uncomfortable. (Every single time someone emails me asks me what the pairing is going to be for Lord of the High Elves because they'll be so upset for wasting their time reading it if it's Harry/Draco)

5. Being a Big Name Fan isn't something I strived for, I hate being called one, and it's not contagious so stop trying to rub yourself all over me. It's weird.

keiramarcos: (Default)
This is how I feel when someone complains about how I run Rough Trade:

keiramarcos: (attitude)
Recently, I became the fandom Agony Aunt against my will. This is absolutely not a complaint so if you've written me for advice and gotten it, don't think I'm being an asshole about it. In fact, this post isn't even a complaint about that aspect--it's about the subject of the last FOUR emails I've gotten.

You see, four different authors in multiple fandoms have come to me in the past month to discuss plagiarism. They've had their work taken, sometimes reworked and posted publicly with little or no credit. One was so outrageous and blatant that I could do nothing but stare at it in shock. I have a pretty strict rule on remixing my work -- the answer is always no. It's always going to be no. Explore my ideas and themes your own way-- yes. But I find it offensive as fuck that anyone would take my work, edit it to suit themselves (like my work is inferior and needs to be fixed) and claim it for themselves.

I gave each of these authors the same basic advice: You have every single right to be unhappy and say so. Also, I've got your back if shit gets ugly.

Yes, we can be inspired the work of others--that's the basic foundation of fandom but don't take other people's works for your own. Remixing should never, ever be done without permission. And really, most of these people aren't even "remixing" in the true sense of the word. They're just taking someone's story and changing it to suit themselves because the author did something they didn't agree with or whatever. It's extremely ugly fucking behavior and posting it online is just another layer of disrespect.

Let's just be good citizens and remember -- don't be an asshole.

Got a fandom problem you'd like me to answer in public? It can be as anonymous as you'd like -- Fill out a contact form and choose the subject "Fandom Agony Aunt":
keiramarcos: (Default)
Most of the time, I get awesome feedback and thought provoking questions. Sometimes, I get whiny emails from people who are offended by my anti-religious, anti-Republican, feminist, liberal, pro-gay agenda. Then there are moments like the ones below that are so... offensive, amusing, stupid, or whatever that I don't even respond to them. Except, I think they might amuse you to see the questions and answers so here goes:

Q. Why do post your HET work? The slash is better.
A. I live in the land of the free and the motherfucking brave and I can post what I want.

Q. Why do you hate Ginny Weasley?
A. I hate all two-dimensional, under utilized and poorly crafted characters in stories, books, tv shows, and movies that serve no real purpose.

Q. Don't you think it's arrogant to have your own weekly internet radio show?
A. Yes. Yes, I do.

Q. Why do your male characters have to be so unrealistically endowed?
A. I pity you. There is nothing unrealistic about a 9 inch cock.

Q. Why are you such a bitch about people offering you advice on your stories?
A. I rarely take advice from professionals who actually know their craft, why would I take advice from some anonymous twat on the Internet who thinks my hate-on for Ron Weasley is inappropriate?

Q. I think you're overrated, why do you get so much attention in fandom when I'm a better writer than you?
A. I don't know but it could be because you're a whiny ass, entitled cunt who actually compares herself to other writers and finds them lacking in order to boost your obvious feelings of inadequacy. Or I'm just awesome. You can decide for yourself.

For for everyone else:  Get out more. Educate yourself. Develop some fucking tolerance or else.

keiramarcos: (Default)

Are you in the closet when it comes to Fandom? We're going to talk about embracing fandom, reasons to hide, the judgement of others and general f*ckery this evening.

Callers and chat questions are welcome.

Discussion: fan-shaming, cosplay, gender roles in fandom, and hiding something super important to you.

You can also ask questions here!

keiramarcos: (fuckalot)

I asked the Minions on my website to ask me questions. I expected ten or so. I got... quite a bit more than that:

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keiramarcos: (farscape)

I realize the recent casting of Ben Affleck has made some people... sort of flip their shit. BUT... let's talk about this:

IF this Batman:
brucewayne AND this is Superman: henrycavill

I'm going to go on record RIGHT NOW and say, I ship it.

I ship it so hard that I've already mentally wrote 100,000 words dedicated to all the grudge fucking I'm picturing.

Also, my husband broke this news to me first and I just stared for a few seconds then nodded and said, "Yeah, I could... yeah I totally ship that."
keiramarcos: (farscape)

I've created a new site for our writing challenges and it is located here:

You can not use the log in for MY site on the new one. They are run by the same software and have similar layouts (but different art) but they are ENTIRELY SEPARATE in function.

This means -- if you want updates, you'll have to subscribe. If you want to read/comment on Rough Trade, you'll have to register. Period.

Due to the nature of the site, I've decided to make it members only. It's free to join and I found a new painless registration form that doesn't require you wait for an email. Don't bitch about this. It's the way it is and I'm not going to change my mind no matter how much you bitch about it.


keiramarcos: (kirk)
I have this huge fic I'm going to start posting. It's going to be about 200k at completion. It is probably a fic that will spawn a sequel. It's set in the HP fandom and is Harry/Hermione. There is het sex in it. It's not as explicit as some of the sex on my site due to the fact that the fic takes place during their sixth year at Hogwarts. I'm going to post it in 10k installments probably on a weekly basis as I edit/beta it.

The results of my activity will vary but I know:

1. Some of you will be disappointed that it's not Harry/Draco.
2. Some of you will be disappointed that it's Het instead of Slash.

My response: I'm not sorry.

You're going to keep your displeasure to yourself or at least confined to your own space. If you comment on my site, LJ, twitter, or facebook about your unhappiness I'm going to publicly rip you a new asshole. I don't want emails or comment forms from my site either.

I don't want to fucking hear a single word about how unhappy I've made you because of my work.

Yes, you're entitled to your opinion. But here's something that a lot of people in fandom have a difficult time grasping -- in no way am I required to appreciate, understand, respect, or even tolerate being told your opinion.

The Sing Off is back this fall!
keiramarcos: (kirk)
There are those of you don't write for whatever reason and that's cool. I do wish everyone wrote. Wouldn't that be awesome if we could just bombard the world with lots of amazing writing?

I'm approaching 2 million words of posted fan fic. My current total is: 1,682,530

Let's say I write between 800 to 1000 words an hour. Middle ground -- say, 900 words an hour. At that rate, I've dedicated to 1869 hours to just writing fan fic since basically 2007. That doesn't count editing, beta, plotting, or haphazard research. I looked at a few documents and this is what I got on a few of my projects writing/editing/beta only:

Old Black Magic - 133k - 455 hours

Serpent King - 105k - 496 hours

No Enemy Within - 55k - 130 hours -- this is not including the first two drafts of this fic.

Ties That Bind - 353,049k - 734 hours -- this number isn't accurate because I can't find the first file where I wrote what was basically the first 150k of this series as one story.

I might have a few... issues.

keiramarcos: (kirk)
Comments from my email this month:

1. "I was recommended your work by a friend. Your fic is decent. I wish you were a little more serious about it though. You're lazy about updates and beta."
Response: I didn't actually respond to this person's email mostly because I am, in fact, lazy about it since this is a HOBBY.

2. "I'm sixteen. I'm telling you that up front so you won't respond to my email and get in trouble or whatever. I wanted you to know that I think you're great and I like how you write Harry and Draco. Sometimes, I get really frustrated with fan fic writers that basically turn one half of a pairing into a girl and not even a strong, kick ass girl. I hope you get what I mean. I'll write you again when I'm old enough to get a response."
Response: You're adorable. I totally get what you mean. Also, as to the rest of your email and the question you asked me -- I think that coming out is a brave but ultimately a very personal choice. It can also be dangerous in some situations so please be extra careful and take care of yourself.

3. "... if you post this 180K fic anytime soon I think I'll have to reconsider my status as a minion (and I'm what? A 5-6yr running one at this point?), because between full time work, full time uni and a ridiculous amount of hours a week spent volunteering as a medic, if I try and read that I'll probably self combust. I will blame you entirely."
Response: (insert laughter) Put on a helmet.

4. A single sentence email from an account that turned out to be closed when I tried to respond: "You're overrated."
Response: Fuck you.

keiramarcos: (kirk)
I'm all bitchy. No, really. I'm sure it's probably related to the fact that I'm on my period (sorry for the TMI but not really I mean, you're reading my journal so you get what you get).

A few weeks (months?) back CP did an epic rescue of a box of discs I had of old stuff I wrote and I found some Harry/Hermione fan fiction that I wrote in college. I've been playing with it, shaping it up and what not. None of it is finished and one of them as 180k (so far). I found a Wesley Crusher fic (Star Trek) that will never ever in a million years see the light of a day AND a Sam/Jack (SG1) that is even worse. I have discovered, however, that following Wil Wheaton on Twitter has ruined my adolescent fantasies about him because he's really rather a dork. A funny dork but a dork nonetheless. His bromance with John Barrowman (which he ships, I do not) is pretty funny.Read more... )

You know, just remember-- I'm just a girl. Standing (sort of) in front of a reader. Not giving a shit if you like me or not.

keiramarcos: (no shame)

The only person I let screw me these days is my husband.

Read this:
Cats & Dogs Living Together: A Response to the Kindle Worlds Announcement

Then watch this to get your mind off how horrible this whole Kindle Worlds crap is:

Area 52??

Feb. 10th, 2013 08:44 pm
keiramarcos: (no shame)
Anyone have any information on Area 52?

It's been down over week for me.

keiramarcos: (no shame)
Your mission, should you chose to accept it, is to go forth into the fandom(s) of your choice and post no less than 10 positive comments. Positive feedback is just about the only currency that is acceptable legally in fandom. There are other ways to show your appreciation: recs, private emails, kudos (if you're on AO3) but January 30th should be about using your words. Nothing is really more powerful to a writer than knowing that they've really touched another person with their work.

keiramarcos: (no shame)
I have a family FULL of ungrateful bitches so I didn't need any more in my life. My limit has been reached. Sorry if you wanted a slot -- one of my aunts is old as fuck so when she kicks it -- we'll have a lottery to see who gets to take her place.

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