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I'm all bitchy. No, really. I'm sure it's probably related to the fact that I'm on my period (sorry for the TMI but not really I mean, you're reading my journal so you get what you get).

A few weeks (months?) back CP did an epic rescue of a box of discs I had of old stuff I wrote and I found some Harry/Hermione fan fiction that I wrote in college. I've been playing with it, shaping it up and what not. None of it is finished and one of them as 180k (so far). I found a Wesley Crusher fic (Star Trek) that will never ever in a million years see the light of a day AND a Sam/Jack (SG1) that is even worse. I have discovered, however, that following Wil Wheaton on Twitter has ruined my adolescent fantasies about him because he's really rather a dork. A funny dork but a dork nonetheless. His bromance with John Barrowman (which he ships, I do not) is pretty funny.

I'm considering posting my Harry/Hermione fic but I'm emotionally vulnerable right now due to my period and I'm not sure I could handle the stupid, ridiculous emails and comments about het being "gross". Seriously. I like to read slash. I obviously like to write it. But I really don't fucking appreciate being told the sex that I actually regularly engage in is "gross". I don't like to judge people for their kinks and for the most part I refrain (except when i don't: incest and bestiality) but it really bothers me to be told this. ESPECIALLY by women who have implied or professed to be married to a man themselves.

But you know what? I don't appreciate hearing it from anyone. I don't tell gay people the sex they have is gross and I wouldn't even if I thought it. This whole het vs. slash thing in fandom is frankly the biggest and most irritating situation I come across.

I get called a misogynist by some cunt who didn't bother to read the entire series (Tangled Destinies) who had the fucking audacity to actually warn another reader to avoid my SGA work based on her half-assed opinion of ONE story in a series of TEN in a situation that is actually based on the canon relationship between Sarek and Amanda. But whatever, okay? I don't even remember her LJ user id because that's how little she matters in the scheme of things. BUT, that situation isn't nearly as irritating as being told that het sex is "gross".

I have an asshole email me and question my mental well being because of the sadism in Ties That Bind. They write a 9,876 word email detailing all the things that are wrong with ME because of John's sadism in a FICTIONAL story. This person didn't have a thing to say about the cold blood murder in What Might Have Been and Sentinels of Atlantis. The violence doesn't make them blink an eye or question my sanity but John getting off on spanking someone is such a cause for alarm that I think they actually got out a DSM V to back up their backward, foolish, uneducated, and foul opinion of someone they've never met and never will meet. And, honestly, fuck you Freud. BUT, that situation isn't nearly as irritating as being told that het sex is "gross".

I get new readers every day. I get new members to my site every day as well. I seduce readers into reading fandoms they've never read before. Recently someone who came to read Harry Potter on my site confessed that I sucked her into the Star Trek fandom. That's cool. When a new reader contacts me--they inevitably ask when I'll be updating again. Sometimes this question irritates me but that's really only when it is the only thing I get from a reader. I don't mind such a question couched around a bit of flailing and genuine thanks for the entertainment I've already provided them. However, even when I only get a whiny ass comment about my slow updating or an email with one sentence demanding to be notified personally when I update TTB... that's not nearly as irritating as being told het sex is "gross".

I don't solicit feedback. I'm never going to ask for it. I'm never going to blackmail you for it. I like getting it. Sometimes when I'm feeling all down and under appreciated in real life, I go to my site and browse through the comments. It's nice. I get awesome feedback. I'm obviously a self-promoter. I mean it would be difficult to claim otherwise when I have my own site, a facebook, and a twitter and a chatroom. Which reminds me... if you come into my chat room don't be surprised or shocked if I actually show up. That's my shit and I'm in there a couple of times a week. Sometimes I just watch others chat while I work on stuff and sometimes I get in there and bitch myself blue in the face. Don't buy into that BNF crap, please. I think it's bullshit. I have a whole post about how much bullshit I think it is. And honestly, if you meet someone who proudly claims to be a Big Name Fan -- run from them.


You know, just remember-- I'm just a girl. Standing (sort of) in front of a reader. Not giving a shit if you like me or not.

Date: 2013-07-24 10:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] insanityoutlet.livejournal.com
I think that many of the aforementioned women would have a stroke even considering their parents and sex in the same thought. (I am a wee bit ashamed to admit I'd enjoy watching the reactions)

Date: 2013-07-25 11:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gail19.livejournal.com
Your icon is sooooooooooooo cute. Sometimes I miss the paperclip.

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